everyone who knows my brother thinks hes a fucking saint. OMG HES SO FUNNY AND NICE. omg edwin?! i love him hes so awesome.

first of all hes nice to people because hes not gonna be an asshole to random people, he doesnt want to be hated. i just hate how the second i go off everyones defending him or some shit.

ugh hes fucking terrible to me, honestly. he doesnt even count me as a girl he calls me it. i know its a big brother thing but come on. and he doesnt have a hard time calling me gross or disgusting and a slut and a bitch. he tells everyone im an alcoholic and a drug addict and that im gonna sleep with a whole bunch of guys because im a slut. and hes really fucking selfish, he doesnt care about anyone but himself.

and here i am. its honestly hard to fucking hate him but sometimes he gets to me and i just want to kick his ass and ugh. he doesnt fucking know how much i care about him and how i worry. everytime he has a seizure or when i hear his grades are dropping. then i try to talk to him and he blows me off and yells at me and is just so fucking rude to me. its not fair. i want whats best for him. and even though i fucking care about him he treats me like shit and i start to resent him.

hes just so fucking rude and mean to me. ugh how the fuck am i supposed to sit there and take that.